idontknowether's Blog

Here in Europe we have this Pan-European song contest called Eurovision song contest. This year they are held Baku, Azerbaijan. Russian entry for 2012 was chosen earlier this week and the Russian chose a group of Udmurt grandmothers to represent them. Udmurts are an ethnic minority living in the eastern parts of the European Russia. For much of the 20th century they were oppressed and there language is still endangered. The Udmurt language belongs to the same Uralic language family as e. g. my native Finnish, which makes me sympathize them even more. In a way those grannies on the stage feel like distant relatives to me (although the Udmurt language is as close to Finnish as for example English is to Russian). I sincerely hope that those grannies and their performance make the Russians think more how they treat their minorities and deal with the vast diversity which enriches their great country in a very unique way. Moreover, I hope that the Udmurt people grow to appreciate their own language even more (only 77% of the ethnic Udmurts speak the language, many of them are older people living in rural areas) so that the language won't die with these adorable old ladies.



I wanted to add  a link to this wikipedia article, which tells a bit more about the Udmurt Republic within the Russian Federation and the people of it.

This is the first time I post this kind of stuff on my blog, but I guess I'll give it a go and see what happens.

So yeah, there's this guy in the university who I think is having a crush on me. I'm really not sure how to feel about it. He's not that cute though he's quite adorable in his own way. He's really sweet and innocent, maybe even too much of it. I mean when I compare myself to him I feel like mean and cynical which I think I'm really not... The thing is that him taking interest in me is quite flattering and since I see him on daily bacis I'm not sure for how long I manage to fight the temptation. It would wrong to date someone just because their affection flatters you, wouldn't it? Moreover since I really (at least at the moment) don't have any feelings for him I think I might just hurt him. I think I might just corrupt him and eventually destroy him when leaving him after finding someone I really fancy. I don't know...

"I am what I am, I won't ever change,

and thus, I rejoice at the life.

I am what I am, I can't become something else.

This is the best for me!

I'm well suited for love.

Can I be blamed

if I'm not to allowed to love just one alone for long

I am what I am, I can't become something else.

This is the best for me.


Well, what's the matter?

If you like, I can love the one falling for me.

I am what I am and I pass for a change.

Therefore, do rejoice at the change!

Even a fool knows: In the games of love everything else must be forgot while you're in love...

I am what I am and I pass for a change. Therefore, do rejoice at the change!

 

I can stand your gazes.

I show off with my clothes,

I follow the style

because I want to ...

I am what I am and I pass for a change.

Therefore, do rejoice... Do rejoice at the change!"
 

The title of the post is my in my native Finnish, I'll give you the translation but you'll have to wait for it a while.

The one and only reason for this particular post is that it's not a poem; three of the four posts of mine before this one were all poems and the latest was a sort of an anouncement I had to make as I was leaving for a while and I thought the easiest way of letting everybody know was to tell it on a blog. Now, I was terribly annoyed by the fact that I had ruined my perfect poetry blog with something trivial and non-transcendental and I had to find a way to some how fix it. I had no heart to delete something I had already written so the only way was to write another non-transcenndental post to fix the ratio. Here you are, now I've done it.

Oh, and the translation... First I got to say I'm studying Finnish language and linguistics in university and I know (at least I have a strong opinion) that there is no true synonyms even within a language (every word bears a meaning or a connotation that no other word does)  not to mention between language so giving a accurate translation is in impossible and only  way of really understanding something said or written in another language is to learn the language and thus learn the other kind of way of thinking and seeing the world. The title "Turhin postaus ikinä!" could be translated either "The most unnecessary post ever!" or "The most useless post ever". Now the idea I was after lies in about the midway of those two translations. Can you see now how tricky it is?

...I've left EP for a while. I'm coming back though :) Anyhow, I'm off to do my military service. That means that I'm not likely to be seen here for at least in 6 months to 12 months maximum. I want to thank all of you wonderful beautiful people and wish you all the best.

See you soon :)

IdKE



P.S. This is a song I've enjoyed a lot and I hope you'll enjoy it too :)

Walking on town

               stealing

people's glances


I put them in my jacket

       in a pocket

          where they keep me warm

Remorse is my shield
chastity my broken sword

I have lost the Battle of Defeats

But so did everyone else

and that lost
tasted so sweet

I recently saw someone keeping some kind of poetry blog and thouhgt my self "well that's a good idea!" So I desided to start my one. Here's the first one, hope you like it. Feel free to comment, what ever you think about it.


            me
a marble virging
       with my guilt-gilded feet
and a gold disc halo

shining
                    alone in the dark

loyal devotees
        nowhere to be seen
perhaps they've never been

                there


hot salty tear
drops down my cold stone cheek

and know one will no